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太平真的很多回忆。。
第一次爱，第一次相信。。
txxx是Bii第一个相信的男生。。也是对Bii最好的。。
就因为不懂得珍惜就错过了。。
第二次爱，是很多考验的txx。。。
家庭的关系。。年龄的关系。。
第三次爱，伤得好深。。sxxxx
输了一切赢回单身又如何？
曾经遇过几个对Bii很好的，以为是可以考虑的，结果根本没分别。。
Lxxxxxx，vxxxxx。。
而txx在Bii还没踏进去Bii就把自己拉出来了。。
他设法把Bii改编成他要的那种女生。。对不起。。Bii做不到。。也不会做。。
Wxx。。Bii第二个相信的人。。对Bii很好，最后还是离开。。Bii看到我们的未来。。
现在原来是梦。。很多的承诺，却没有实现过！
无论如何，还是谢谢你们这些伤我的人！现在的Bii，真的心累了，不再信任了，至少长大了。。

秀秀～BII小学最好的一个朋友。。人很好。。什么都嚷着BII。。=）现在却失去联络了。。=（
旖宁～也是小学很好的朋友。。我们每次都形影不离。。=）
双莹～中学的好朋友。。也是参很久的一个朋友。。现在少联络了很多。。=（
Darpat～Bii心中很重要的一个朋友！人好。。体贴。。就是很喜欢她！只是少联络少见面。。但有一在Bii心中还是一样！^^
Moku～现在最好的朋友。。也是每天形影不离。。^^但最近。。。好像变了的。。T.T

家里虽然感情很僵。。虽然一天都没有讲超过十句话。。虽然Bii都很久很久没在家吃饭了。。但Bii懂妈咪是疼我的。。bii爱你妈咪～=x

现在的Bii，被伤过，哭过，痛过，心也真的是累了。。亲情，友情，爱情。。都一样好累！
Bii真的不懂要怎样活着过完这辈子。。唯一能做的，也只是快点去penang找份工麻醉自己，让自己累，不再想那么多！Bii的人生中没有开不开始新的生活了。。放不下的怎样都开不了新的！累累累，又如何？ 谁会在乎？谁会问候？谁又会关心了呢？Bii累Bii自己懂。。也只能发泄在部落格，也没有别的选择。。。
今天睡了6 小时，醒了，自然的想起昨天的一切，自然的泪流。。直到现在也忘了自己没吃到正餐，只吃了那两串腊肠～=x
到底怎么了？Bii坚强～！！

headache again=(

Wat the fucking weak body i hav???!!!
T.T
haiz..suak liao ~~
today sienn..moody =((
today 12pm wake up than go rebonding n cut my hair..
wah lan ~~ugly.. T.T
suak liao..
after cut mumi cum fetch me, in car like hor sin say dis say tat =x
than reach home no long afk cum fetch me out liao..
we go celebrate birthday wif Gity =)
hehex..
finish celebrate jiu go long gai..
sien ..sien ..sien..
today si beh sien n cold..
so we very early go home d~
nw faint faint n headache ..
is time to slp d..
nite all ~
day 20 =)


sweetx Bii 最不能接受的3件事
1）被人骗！
2）做不到不要答应我！
3）被人放飞机！

你犯了其中那个两个！所以我今天更没心情！不要说谁犯的！最算是一个很普通的朋友犯了这其中一个，bii我都会很生气！你在我心中的地位，你自己知道，所以。。！！我气消不了！！

dead=X

Y’day juz finish a movie..is Korean movie..
The movie telling me die is a easy thg..
Nobody noe when u wil dead..
I m scary someday I wil suddenly pass away..
I try my best to do everythg I can do nw..
Coz I m very weak ..
Easy to faint ..sit car oso wil faint..
Easy to heahache..
Samore gt asthma..My heart easy to pain..
Easy wil Difficult to breathe..
When pain, I m hard to get bak ..
The heart pain I m cant to Describe..Like Cramp …
I never tel my mum I gt my body is not well..
I no dare to hospital check my body..
If realy my body gt anythg ,I realy cant to accept it..
Childhood I m often Nosebleeds..
Until nw I sometime stil wil..
My Relative everytime tel my mum, take me go hospital check..
Coz they’s frd oso same like me ..often nosebleed..
Than dint go check ,dint eat medicine,juz treat it like nth..
As long as feel no well..after than only go hospital check..
But all is too late..bcoz the ppl is get nose cancer d..
Mami gt say wan take me go check ..juz I dwn ..
I don’t like..i oso duno y ..mayb I m scare..
And the time I m juz 12 years old..
Oso wont to care wat they say..juz treat like nth..=X
Until nw I m only feel want to check my body..
I ask my moku dear acc me go n check 2gather..
But moku say if nw go check n noe wat ur Disease u more hard..
Cant hapi enjoy ur life d..
Gt hu can accept u gt sick til wan laugh wif ur life until die ??
Nobody can..its hard..
So I oso agree about wat my moku dear say..
N I realy cant accept if realy somethg like tat Happened to me..
So I Rather Dont know anything End the fun in this life..
Got hu can take care like tat geh me ??
I m sweak ..
Got hu can couple wif me n enjoyly??
Not.=)
I m the weak weak girl =(
So I juz can depend myself~
Gambateh ..Sweetz Biii…=)
The day 19 bii missing you..

最近都每天出门。。
我的早餐，午餐，晚餐，宵夜都跟他们（moku dear，susu，afk）一起吃。。
应该是说，我的晚餐吃麦在早餐和午餐的份。。因为我只吃晚餐而已。。
可是我们的晚餐大多数都吃好几个地方。。哈哈。。
可能我每次都不爱家里吃的关系。。所以跟家里越来越陌生。。
每天醒来就上网，冲凉，做家务。。然后就准备要出门了。。
出到晚上12点才回家，妈咪就进房间了。。
一天只说一句话。。就是‘咪，我出去了！’
久而久之越来越陌生。。也习惯了跟moku dear，susu，和afk一起的日子。。
虽然每天出去都没地方去。。可是就是喜欢跟他们在一起。。
感觉和亲切。。他们的人都很好。。在一起很开心。。虽然说是单身。。
我也不会特别去说想找个伴什么的。。因为这样反而很自由。。很自在。。=)
现在的生活真的很自在。。可是我懂我不能这样下去。。
我没读书了，也没有一份工作，也不敢想家里拿钱。。
其实我很烦。。虽然是说要下penang做工了，可是又没那么快。。
最快都要3，4个月。。要等我的moku dear考好车的lessen。。
在这样下去，怕妈咪真的火山爆发了。。
想先找份工，但是太平要怎样找？工钱又少，又要烦谁能载去载回。。
烦啦～唉～

我的Darpat，好久没看到他了。。好怀念以前跟他一起上学的日子。。有什么都一起分享。。一起打闹的日子。。还有我们的主题曲‘一个像夏天，一个像冬天’XD
好想你呀。。我的darpat老公^^
Cute lui ying，最近都没见面了。。感情好像也淡了。。=x伤心。。
还有sunsun dear，joan 老婆，gmiko仔仔，紫薇，edmund，eddie。。。。
纬要回来了，又可以听到他的傻傻的声音了，又可以看到他傻傻的脸了。。哈哈
好想念大家哦～=(

当然还有beibi咯～五月不懂有没有回来呢。。=(
第18天，好想你呀。。
呵呵。。今天的部落格就写到这里咯XD
爱你们，想你们哦～


甜Bii 上>0=

beibi XD

few day dint blog d luu..
coz pun no free..
slp at moku dear house..


today out wif moku dear ,susu,afk n tze haan ..
we go mcd yam cha ,kheng gai =)
sien ka bo mi gia yii ..we take salf, Milk powder, Black pepper,tomato sos, chili sos,cigarette lai yii XD
yiyerrr ~~so geli ~~

afk eat dis thg ..than tze haan go sit the mcd table 1 min ..hahahahx..

too sien jor XD

than jiu cum bak luu..

wif my beibi msn til nw .. wan go slp luu.. beibi 2mr oso gt working ya ~

slp luu..nite beibi ..mmuackz

day 16 i m missing u le XD
hehehex.. u is mine XD

SICK=(

Sick Sick Sick ..
Kang ko T.T
Sick liao til can out , til can go eat hot hot thg ..chicken chop, roti bakar…..bla bla bla ..
Realy pro =X
Nw only noe wat is hard T.T
2moro mumi go siam buy tattoo thg ..
So I solo at house again …sienn
2moro we (me ,moku dear,susu,afk) plan so full =)
But duno my sick can tahan bo ..=((
Hard hard ..nw slp lu ..


Sorry ya.. 2nite dint wait u.. coz I realy hard hard em ..
Tonite dint hear u say gud nite jiu slp jor..=( sobs
MISS EUU~
Day 12 missing uu

I m Bii ^^

Zha ki Kun qie oline xi wa si beh angry ya ..
fb gt ppl steal my pic >.<
hng hng hng ~~
idiot ! so like to steal ppl pic coz ur face no nice si bo ?!
hate hate !! T.T


gia ji wa kor kor cum bak liao..
sunddenly cum bak duno 4 wat..
cum bak liao like a ho sin like tat...
si beh luan XDDD
hahax~~


beibi~~
juz u can cal me bii
coz i m ur bii =)
hehehx~`
Y'day very tired so slp jor dint write blog ya >0<
today is the day 10 i m missing u ^^

I m soh po XD

Today morning when wake up , my head very pain ..
samore ar tio qiu..pain dao.. do wat oso kang ko T.T
realy sick liao..akf oso sick jor =X
but we til can out ..hehex
mayb out guan xi liao.. suddenly mai out oso cant liao ..
We nite only go out..so wa bo jiak tio ming gia..
chu lia liao wa rang ka ki jiak..
We so pro.. our dinner go 3 place eat.. hahax
1st go simpang eat yii mee, than go xiao fan zhong xin eat dou hua, after tat we go tupai mamak eat roti bakar ..hahahax.. gou li lorhx...so gao jiak XDDD
finish eat we go long gai .. sien dou~~~~
than 5 some qi kek A ming gia lai yi~~
qi kek dao ~~~~~hahax..siok siok XDDD

Start from today , I realy want quit smoking liao ..
gia ji xio 6 gi nia ..
2mr 5 gi =)
gambateh =)


day 8
missing you

nitex ~^^

Enjoy

Close the door
Turn out the lights
Open air-con
Wearing headphones
Turn the music up to the maximum sound
I can feel the world juz gt me 1 ppl only


Duno wat i wan .. juz feel i m wasting my time..
my brain is very complex...


I only now that I trust my feel , so I folo my feel ..
I duno anythg bout u , so I wil try my best to learn about u..


day 7
missing you

feel sick liao=(

Feel like wan sick liao..
na our si beh tia~~T.T
samore headache..
shit !
sick jiu cham liao .. =(
kang col ~~
Today go eat sushi wif sun n benjamin them ..
the sushi shop juz gt we sound nia..
UNAGI UNAGI UNAGI~~
yummy XDDD
hahax..
than finish eat liao , we go sing k ..
'nothing gonna change my love for you'
'like a rose'
'i dont wanna miz a thg' =)
finish sing k than jiu go bak liao .. bo rang zai wa bak .. so ke lian~T.T
than cal texi .. the driver is a uncle lai de ..
so kong bu .. lucky benjamin acc me =)
than cum bak home liao jiu online til 10++ go out wif moku dear go bukit merah long gai xD
1++ jiu cum bak liao~
beh tahan ~~
tired.. rang bo song ~~
realy feel tio wan sick liao~~
T.T

day 6
miss you
hugss

its sweet

touching~=) dis is a note of some1 write for Bii..

13/4 ---today,too free..review bek tat day since i knw u...although..it jus a normal day..but...it is important to me...becoz...after meet u tat day,my heart's owner had chg,n belonged to u,until tis second... tat day, jus lik wat i do always,go to find my frens at sentral..looking around while im sitting ther wait for him..1 gal tat wearing black shirt had take away my attention...
Keep Watching wat she was doing…a -cute leng lui-<
my fren tell me tat u only form3 n stop frm sching…but…I din care for it…coz I knw,frm tat min onward,even tough u din study be4..or…u a bad gal..I aso decided to knw about u…til is second…no matter hw bad u r,its jus an illusion for me
like u~I always will...ur special smile~special face…reli filled a place in my heart tat no1 cn fill it…tat day..a normal day…for others…but it is meaningful to me..meaningful to my life n heartz..i had meet the one tat I finding always…the 1 I nid the most…the 1 I lik the most….=I LOVE YOU=
=like you jus like hw u look like=你几粗鲁也好，你是一个大坏蛋也好，就喜欢这样的你。。。。。


thxx ur love ..^^

solo at home

Today mumi go gai gai liao..
but 2mr cum bak d..==''
my nenek oso dint cum my house ~
solo at house duno wan do wat pun..
hang cai wu moku dear cum my house acc me XDDD
gor wu ah leong buy nasi pataya giv me mam mam XDD
HAPI ^^
thxx u my moku dear ^^muackzzzz
and leong ^^
than moku dear at my house online til 7pm ++ only go out ~
we (me , moku dear, susu, afk)go simpang pasar malam ..
hahax ~but many mam mam cum bak my house party ..hahax..yummy =X
today wan solo at house slp kia kia ..
so later go moku dear house slp better XD

day 5
i m b missing u
beibi ~
misssssssssss ur
- laugh sound
-leiiiii lo
-ai ki to lo
-tat house we lepak
-ur body 's smell
-lu A Q mo
hahax =X

fai fai cui cum bak narhxxx
we r missing youuuu
beibi~^^

house

T.T
sad sad sad ~~

2mr mumi wan go aother place gai gai d..
dint bring i go..
til wan me stay at home !!
she say wan take my grandmom cum my house stay wif me , than wa jiu cant out liao .. wan jiao kor my nenek ..
3 day !!! let me die better la !!
u two go hapi , than wan me at home boring .. gud la uu !!
hate uuu ..
at house sien !!
nth eat .. nth do.. no more smoke ...
wahhhh~~~`
pek chek !!!
when i tel u my thg ,u sure scold me , dint tel u , lu gor gong wa wu ah mi ming gia pun mai ka lu gong !! lu ai wa an zuak?????
sien dis home ..
i wan fast fast go penang T.T
i believe this type of life wil very fast past geh ...
gambateh!!

I tel my self , i wil be hapi .. wont let u all (my moku dear n my beibi n my darpat ) wori ~
coz i gt ur care ..
ur care r important to me..
i love uu 3~~ muackz

the 4 day bibi t missing you ..my beibi ~hug ~

Tir3d

Today very tired =(
morning 9 mami jiu cal me wake uo go qing ming d..
huiyooo~~
hot dao ~~~~~beh tahan T.T
finish qing ming cum bak jiu beh kun liao , hot !!
pun bo xion ai kun liao..wan online ~(coz u beibi )
Than wif u chat til 5pm i jiu go out liao ~
go mam mam ,gai gai wif leong n sheng.. my 2 cute frd..
long time no c jor.. miz miz ..hehex~
finish mam mam we go ts again ==
acc sheng go cut hair..than go walk walk
at roller there tu tio celine XD
kua tio yi 1st sure is seter we thg lo XDDD
seter about my gud feeling ..hahax
she so noty , mai rang giv me my gud feeling T.T
til say my gud feeling wan her wait him 8 yearx
T.T bo liao bo liao .. wa shu liao ~
but i wont let u down ^^ hahax
finish seter celine jiu go watch movie ' being human ' XD
hehex..so funny ..
but wa bo sim kua ..
juz wan bak home online online XD
wan crazy d .. =)

hahax..3rd dayzz
missing u =)

=)

Today is hapi^^

bt very tired T.T

~7am~

wake up

~9am~

go bak tmgs=)

canteen day..c bak my all frd frd ^^

1st sure is take photo ..hohoho..

than go walk walk ,eat eat, ply ply ..siok..

so miz tat feel ..wuhooo~^^

~1pm~

ying take we go bak..tired..hot..beh tahan ~~~>.<

we go mam mam ..my cute lui ying driver car.. scaryy !!!

~4pm~

reach home ..

1st time is online online !!^^hehex...c u gt online bo XD

yeahhh~~!!

u gt online here ^^

^^wif u chat chat chat ~~

hapi~

today so miz uu..

today is 2nd day...

my gud feeling ^^

gud niteee ~muackzzz

hehex

=)

♥♥♥~super junior~♥♥♥

(it's you)

Neorago
Neorago
Nan neoppoonirago
Neorago
Dareun saram piryo eobseo naneun geunyang neorago
Dashi hanbeon mooreo bwado naneun geunyang neorago
Imi neoneun dareun sarang haeggejjiman
Nohchil sooga eobseo dashi dorikil soo eobseo Oh~
Nae noonbichi ddeugeoweodeon soongane
Gaseum gipeun moseul bakdeon soongane
Miryeon eobshi baro neoreul seontaekhaesseo
Geurae nan neorago
Oh nan~
Geu nooga nooga mweorado naneun sanggwan eobdago
Geu nooga nooga yokhaedo neoman barabondago
Na dashi taeyeonandedo ojik neoppoonirago
Shigani heulleodo
Oh nan~
Neol saranghanda marhaedo cheonbeon manbeon marhaedo
Nae gaseum sok da booltago mareun ipsool dwedorok
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Shigani heulleodo
Oh nan~
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
Amoo maldo piryo eobseo nan geunyang neorago
Neomoo neujeoddago haedo nan geunyang neorago
Jalmotdwen sarangin geol algo ijjiman
Pogihal soo eobseo jeoldae nohchil sooneun eobseo Oh oh~
Chadachan nae ipsooreun deo booreune
Ddeugeowoopge neoreul chaja wechine
Boolleobwado daedapeobneun neoijiman
Neol gidarindago
Oh nan~
Geu nooga nooga mweorado naneun sanggwan eobdago
Geu nooga nooga yokhaedo neoman barabondago
Na dashi taeyeonandedo ojik neoppoonirago
Shigani heulleodo
Oh nan~
Neol saranghanda marhaedo cheonbeon manbeon marhaedo
Nae gaseum sok da booltago mareun ipsool dwedorok
Na dashi taeyeonandedo ojik neoppoonirago
Shigani heulleodo
Oh nan~
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Nan neorago neorago naneun
Wae moreuni? Wae moreuni?
Nan neorago neorago nan~
Geu nooga nooga mweorado naneun sanggwan eobdago
Geu nooga nooga yokhaedo neoman barabondago
Na dashi taeyeonandedo ojik neoppoonirago
Shigani heulleodo
Oh nan~
Neol saranghanda marhaedo cheonbeon manbeon marhaedo
Nae gaseum sok da booltago mareun ipsool dwedorok
Na dashi taeyeonandedo ojik neoppoonirago
Shigani heulleodo
Oh nan~
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Nan neoppoonirago
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